I have felt an obvious shift in my energy and calmness since I have been living on my own.
I know its only been two weeks but I also notice a synergy of events around me now that makes me feel more 'connected' to people and life.
For instance my meditation practice has become more regular and meaningful. I have been reading more about Buddhist beliefs on the temporary nature of things and about reincarnation. I think it has really started to dissolve my anxiety about time rapidly running out. I can now more clearly imagine a future after death that transcends our physical nature and suffering. I can see in Buddhist beliefs a possible reason for our existence, the nature of karma, why we should make the most of this life and why compassion for others and good intention can relieve much of our own pain and suffering and that of others.
I have bumped into a long time friend that I needed to reconnect with particularly at this time. I have long been delaying my reunion with them out of fear of embarrassment for my long neglect of them.
I have been inspired by my new friends to hold a birthday party at home this week
My workplace situation though still unresolved has improved by my relocation to a place with less distraction.
My weekends are more fulfilling. Chance meetings with old friends have led to enjoyable activities and I have spent some more quality time with my family going to a fund raising event and having dinner with my son.
It is really enjoyable to feel some semblance of hope and confidence in my life.
I have lowered my medication which has reduced the severity of some side effects
In general it seems that in my present condition, I thrive better when I have my own large personal mental space to come home to. This is not uncommon with ADD.
Andante
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